Today.

So me and dad are talking. It's nice when we get along. Hopefully I'll be able to reconcile with him. The dance was really good. The first time in a long time that I've really felt like he's my daddy.


Valentines Party tonight. I think I'm gonna stay home for this one.

It's cold outside.

I'm feeling a little sick.

RYAN TEDDER WON A GRAMMY. <3

FINALLY! Only took 7 years with nine nominations.
Gahh. He won for Adele's win on Album of the year. Well deserved win for sure! Happy for Adele on all her wins. Paul Epworth too. And BON IVER. <3

Lovesong-Adele (My cover of her cover of The Cure)


That's all for now.

2012.

Hello 2012. Nice to meet you. I'm a kid who's looking for a good year, will you be that for me? I'm trying to break a vicious cycle I've put myself in. I think you might be the one to end it. Will you be my turning point? At least my first few steps? I have faith that you're the one!

Music. As always. Tracks I'm feeling now:
Turning Into Stone-Phantogram
Breathe Slow-Data Romance
Rainy Zurich-The Fray
Charlie Brown-Coldplay
Sail Away-The Rapture
Shattered-Trading Yesterday
Don't Go-Josh Kumra (Acoustic)
Lovesong-Adele
Caraphernelia-Pierce The Veil
Blue Streak Mama-Frazey Ford
Always On My Mind-Caleb Slade

Caleb Slade GOOD GOD the man is amazing. I highly recommend getting his Victory In Defeat EP if you haven't. Very heartfelt and relatable songs. <3

And Josh Kumra is amazing too. Just found him about 2 days ago.

THE FRAY! FINALLY! Their new album Scars and Stories was released on Feb 6th, and it's beautiful. Love them, need to see them live. :)

My sister. My baby. My world. This little girl is growing up so fast, it's hard to wrap my head around it. She's so beautiful. She's amazing. She's got me wrapped around her tiny little finger. I want nothing more but for her to be happy. Healthy. I know I gotta take care of her. Be the big sister I never had. Teach her, let her learn from my mistakes. My little everything (who's trying to walk already!?!).

America's Got Talent. Will it happen? I dunno. We'll see. About a month to go before I know for sure. If it's God's will, then I'll get that phone call. (If I get that phone call, then I get to audition for the celebrity judges, I already auditioned for the producers).

fUEl Valentines Day party on Monday. Might go with Aaron. :) Ugh That guy drives me crazy, and I don't know if I love it or hate it. If only he understood, how much he means to me, how much it can hurt sometimes, how much he was my escape. But he doesn't. I'm just another one of his millions of friends to him. Nothing more. Boy, you mean so much more to me! Why can't you see that? Or do you?? :/

Father-Daughter dance tonight. One time a year I wear a dress. This year, it's not just me, it's Ellie too :) Haha. Maybe I'll post pics. If I like them. Keep an eye on my soundcloud, stuff will be going up soon here.
http://soundcloud.com/dsagacitymusic
Some pics I love:

I'm Okay.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY WAKING UP!!! Two years ago today the 2nd most amazing album ever came out. Thanks OneRepublic for giving us such great music. And in 5 days "Christmas Without You" will be out! Tuesday at 12:01 am, according to Ryan. :)

Need to start working out. I feel so lazy. Maybe I'll walk the dog or something. I dunno.

Posted two covers on youtube, "A Drop In The Ocean" and "This=Love" two of my favorites.

Bored! Gonna go do schoolwork. Goodbye for now, blogspot. <3

Eli (as in Eliana, not Elijah Goldsworthy :P)

I love her! She gives me the strength to live each day. She's adorable, she's taken my heart as her own! It is my job to take care of her, to be what she needs. I'm here with open arms, and I'm not ever leaving her side! From the day she was born to whatever mess she get's into, I'll be here, I promise. And this is a promise I won't break.

Busy as...well just busy.

Currently switching back and forth between blogger/tumblr and schoolwork. Watching my baby sister. That little girl means so much to me, I want to be the best sister I can be to her.
(Love Lost-The Temper Trap)
I don't want her to become what I have. She's so cute, so smart..ah yeah she's only 8 months but still. I know I won't be around as much when I'm older. Move to LA or something. But I worry about what she'll be.
(Stranger Than Fiction-Outasight)
I don't want her to be a mess. I want her to know that I'm here for her no matter what she does. Hope she understands that one day. She's my world, the only one I can trust right now...
(I-Woe,Is Me)
So since freshman year ended, I've lost about 30 lbs. Mom freaked, but doctors don't really care cause I'm not underweight. But it all happened in about 2 months, and I still haven't gained it back. (and it's not like I eat right or exercise..I live off of Ramen Noodles and only sport I'm in is bowling...)
(I Want You-Kings Of Leon)


Ahhh, a song just came on, a song I haven't listened to since June, a song that makes my chest hurt and my thoughts blurred. I can't believe it came on. Why now? Why when my day's been good. Just mess with my head. Shoot me down.
"Save yourself from the heartache. Go now, before it's too late. But still, she stays." Ah, don't feel like writing anymore. I'll write another day.

Eli Moments I Love